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I JUST WANT TO SCREAM.
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Jan. 4th, 2009 | 01:38 pm
location: City
mood: 
stressed
I'm very stressed at the moment. I went 62 km/h in a 60 km/h zone where there was a speed camera... and now I'm not sure if the speed camera got me or not =/ Mathew told me that it's if you go over 7km/h of the speed limit so I didn't but I don't know .. I can't find it written anywhere to believe that's how they really do it.. and it's pissing me off because it's double demerits and I just got my licence and I don't have that many points because I'm on my Red P's. =/ I really hope that I didn't get a fine or anything. =[
Now the next thing is that it's Beau's birthday today and I'm not seeing him until tomorrow. But I sent him a text saying Happy Birthday and he replied like we've never had a fight before and that everything was fine.. I didn't want to act as giddy as him or act as bad to ruin his day so I just replied and said okay .. have fun then. I can't bring myself to act so nice to him or be happy about everything because I'm reached the point where I'm really not happy about it all. Anyway I'll see what happens tomorrow but I can't break up with him on the same day that i give him his present. I'm not that inconsiderate and besides, I don't want the present thrown back in my face after $300 spent on it.
i went to the pools this morning for an hour to try and relax.. well it worked while I was there and until I got to work but now I'm just so stressed.. and need to keep taking deep breathes. How annoying.
I read Twilight.. and I want MY Edward Cullen. If he even exists.
Mathew was my midnight kiss on nye. ;]
I met up with Mathew last night and we just drove around, stayed at a park in Glenwood for a little while then went back home. What I like about him is that he actually talks , he is understanding and he actually looks like he cares and he isn't even my boyfriend! I don't fancy his car though... it's so damn noisy and bumpy wherever it goes! I don't know how he stands it.. it's like the way my car feels driving on the crappy road off the M4 to Silverwater Drive.. feels like my tyre fell off. Well I suppose it's not as bad as that lol... but it's still bumpy. He didn't even try anything with me last night.. not even close. =] I like it that way for now. lol. AAANND he replies to me texts straight away unlike some people I know. Anyway I don't really know if he likes me or not but I did find out that he thought I was my sister at first when he first met me.. :O maybe he wanted my sister?! LOL Which is bad for me.. because you know when you are interested in someone but you find out you were only interested in them because you thought they were someone else? and now you know they aren't that person so you lose interest.. isn't that bad? lol..
Well time to plan what i'm going to do tomorrow.. pools? go running? Clean everything. Then Beau. gee fun eh? try and see Beau as late as possible and go home the same night.. that's my plan. because I'm going pools the next day with Tugba.. finally get to see my friends. uuh.
Now the next thing is that it's Beau's birthday today and I'm not seeing him until tomorrow. But I sent him a text saying Happy Birthday and he replied like we've never had a fight before and that everything was fine.. I didn't want to act as giddy as him or act as bad to ruin his day so I just replied and said okay .. have fun then. I can't bring myself to act so nice to him or be happy about everything because I'm reached the point where I'm really not happy about it all. Anyway I'll see what happens tomorrow but I can't break up with him on the same day that i give him his present. I'm not that inconsiderate and besides, I don't want the present thrown back in my face after $300 spent on it.
i went to the pools this morning for an hour to try and relax.. well it worked while I was there and until I got to work but now I'm just so stressed.. and need to keep taking deep breathes. How annoying.
I read Twilight.. and I want MY Edward Cullen. If he even exists.
Mathew was my midnight kiss on nye. ;]
I met up with Mathew last night and we just drove around, stayed at a park in Glenwood for a little while then went back home. What I like about him is that he actually talks , he is understanding and he actually looks like he cares and he isn't even my boyfriend! I don't fancy his car though... it's so damn noisy and bumpy wherever it goes! I don't know how he stands it.. it's like the way my car feels driving on the crappy road off the M4 to Silverwater Drive.. feels like my tyre fell off. Well I suppose it's not as bad as that lol... but it's still bumpy. He didn't even try anything with me last night.. not even close. =] I like it that way for now. lol. AAANND he replies to me texts straight away unlike some people I know. Anyway I don't really know if he likes me or not but I did find out that he thought I was my sister at first when he first met me.. :O maybe he wanted my sister?! LOL Which is bad for me.. because you know when you are interested in someone but you find out you were only interested in them because you thought they were someone else? and now you know they aren't that person so you lose interest.. isn't that bad? lol..
Well time to plan what i'm going to do tomorrow.. pools? go running? Clean everything. Then Beau. gee fun eh? try and see Beau as late as possible and go home the same night.. that's my plan. because I'm going pools the next day with Tugba.. finally get to see my friends. uuh.
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